All the Reasons I am Bad at Apex Legends

I keep losing in Apex Legends and I’m not sure what’s going on.

Teenage me was a legend when it came to shooters. Sure, there were friends much better than me, but dangit, I earned that 4.2 KDR. After doing some exhaustive research and self reflection, I’ve compiled my reasons and thoughts that may help explain this odd phenomenon.

Game’s full of cheaters.

“This is obviously the most likely reason for my meager performance. ‘There’s no way I died that fast! I had full shields, and I must have hit that person like 10 times!’”

Immediately looks into the amount of cheaters in Apex, pleased to find an article about 16,000 people being banned, then sad again, realizing that mostly pertains to PC players.

“Okay, well I’m still not convinced that there aren’t cheaters on PlayStation 4, so I’m going to accept this AS FACT.”

I’m an old man with responsibilities.

“Pff. No wonder these people are all beating me! They’re all kids with no responsibilities and this is what they do ALL day. I can’t be expected to compete against someone like that.”

Notices clock that is now displaying 2:00 am, which then indicates that you’ve been playing Apex Legends for the better half of 5 hours straight. Note: This isn’t the only time this has happened.

“Sure, I’ve been playing a decent amount of Apex, but, there’s still not enough time in the day to keep up with these whippersnappers. Let’s see if they can hold a steady eight-to-five AND be as good as me, THEN we’ll talk.”

My teammates are bad.

“I’m generally a good team player, but Tim is pretty new to the game, and doesn’t quite have a “feel” for it yet. He didn’t even know that you could slide, lol, TOTAL noob.  We’re probably not going to win that much today, but it’s not a big deal, because I’m just showing Tim the ropes.”

You are the only person that was knocked three times in one match, and good ol’ Tim revived you all three times.

“Well, Tim does prefer to play as the Medic, so it’s his responsibility to revive us anyways. I need to play more aggressive, which is why I die more.”

Okay, I’m bad.

Now that I've journeyed through the possible reasons of why I am bad at Apex Legends, I've come to the conclusion that I’m bad.

After spending enough hours in Apex, I do believe that my skills should be at a “passable” level where I win more encounters than I lose, but that still doesn’t seem to be the case. Each time an enemy squad catches me in their sights, chaos ensues, and I end up dying in a rather embarrassing manner.

So what does this mean? Why do I still feel drawn to a game that I’m bad at? Is that okay?

I’m a firm believer in playing to have fun, and if part of that fun is winning, then maybe playing a game that you are shockingly bad at isn’t for you. But, if you can find fun in something, even if you don’t win, then you can play whatever the heck you want.

I keep coming back to Apex because of the hilarious moments formed by the stupid mistakes I make. I also enjoy being able to spend time hanging out with people I may not have the chance to talk with otherwise.

So if you’re like me, and you’re real bad at Apex Legends, don’t focus on winning and make excuses, just have fun with it... but watch out for those cheaters.

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